Toni's Blues

  • Title: Toni's Blues
  • Author: Jacqueline Rainey
  • ISBN: 9781618979483
  • Page: 380
  • Format: Paperback
  • Toni s Blues In every woman s heart there is a place for a special man the key is finding our soul mate in this world Toni was always in search of love but somehow she kept choosing the wrong men Toni is a beauti
    In every woman s heart there is a place for a special man the key is finding our soul mate in this world Toni was always in search of love, but somehow she kept choosing the wrong men Toni is a beautiful songwriter who has been very successful at writing love songs, but finds herself at one of the lowest points in her life because of her own unsuccessful search for loveIn every woman s heart there is a place for a special man the key is finding our soul mate in this world Toni was always in search of love, but somehow she kept choosing the wrong men Toni is a beautiful songwriter who has been very successful at writing love songs, but finds herself at one of the lowest points in her life because of her own unsuccessful search for love This last abusive relationship has stripped her of her remaining self esteem and the sense of who she is as a woman She finds herself on the floor, remembering everything she has allowed this man to take from her, including her freedom While she is on the floor, Toni starts to evaluate her life and her choices in men So begins her journey of redemption and the essence of Toni s Blues How hard is it to recognize a fallen woman not on the floor Shouldn t it be obvious as if to be falling in slow motion, even her tears will fall slowly, but her cries won t be soft Every piece of her touched and bruised heart tender to the touch Here I sit, bruised pieces of me Love can truly make us blind to the reality that there never really was any love there to begin with.

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    About Jacqueline Rainey


    1. A few years ago while lying in bed with my eyes still closed an idea for a book began to come to me I was suddenly flooded with the story line for this book, title and all I was shocked and couldn t believe it because I had just broken through the worst case of writer s block that had lasted over fifteen years and just for a moment I cried tears of joy, but there is so much to this story I had been writing poetry since I was eleven years old and to suddenly have this outlet of creativity just disappear was devastating But here I am today the Author of four published books Through Whose Eyes Rise, Child of God a book of poems and short stories and Toni s Blues a tale of domestic violence about a woman who searched for love in the wrong men Dark Harmonie the tale of a gifted woman who goes through a transformation, she is hunted and marked for death because others want what she possesses 30 The Dragonfly Catcher My intentions weren t to make it erotic, but to show just how far some of us will go to punish ourselves or fill a void My character CaSandra is a fragmented woman with three sides to her personality.Although I grew up in Massachusetts and my first two books were written there I m quick to stay true to my place of birth which is Augusta Georgia, I will always be a Georgia Peach I m now an Arizona resident who relocated to this wonderful desert State on a true walk of faith I had never done anything like it before I packed up and moved almost three thousand miles away There has not been a day that I feel that I ve made a mistake it is quite the opposite I believe I am right where I am supposed to be on this part of my journey I hit the Massachusetts foster system at the age of thirteen with my first foster home being the home of a Pastor and his wife There were other homes that followed sometime with me going in the front door and literally out the back door One of these homes included the home of a woman who chose to have all the children who entered her home baptized and so I was Toward the end of my run as a ward of the State of Massachusetts there was Helen Green, who became the mother I always wanted, I miss her very much I wish she were still here, but she passed many years ago from cancer I take comfort in knowing that she can see me and has been watching all these years After a brief stint in the Army I made my rounds at a number of the Massachusetts Colleges and Universities while struggling with Psych issues which also attributed to my substance abuse and later becoming addicted I was bruised by my past, but I am no longer a broken woman I have walked through and sometimes crawled fighting to hang on for another day The memories of child abuse, domestic violence, addiction, and sexual assault are heavy burdens for anyone to bear, but here I stand in God s hand Even though my journey had not been one of comfort the Lord told me that I should now enjoy the journey.I fell in love with music first before I began writing poetry My mother would play music all the time At the age of eleven I discovered two things that I could sing and I love to write poetry I wrote my first love poem at the age of eleven Music has always been a major force in my life from a very young age taking on many roles helping me to sometimes forget and at other times remember the good and the bad times in my life Music is the only constant thing that is still a guiding force in my life from my childhood I wrote all my books to music Every stroke of the keys on my laptop was made while listening to songs that I felt were influencing my mood and thoughts as I wrote, I even listened to the sad songs that broke my heart and made me cry Yes I m an Author telling stories in ways that no one else can because I add the broken pieces of me to all that I write All my main characters are females and I love showing that women are strong and survivors, it s my thing and it s who I


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    1. Toni is broken and devastated at the beginning of "Toni's Blues". Like so many other women that have taken a blow because of choices that we've made - consistent choices that eventually lead us to despair. Toni is alone at home, broke on the ground, even looking out as the world outside of her window continues to live; while she can barely find the strength to get up and start over, once again.Jacqueline Rainey sings Toni's Blues in a stream of conscious - not entirely calculated, but raw. She e [...]

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    2. When she consoles her jilted child, a mother will always tell you “better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all”. Maybe.Many years ago, I loved and lost. It was painful. It was more emotional pain than I thought anyone could bear. It was all-consuming and the feeling off loss leaves you ruined and spiritually flaccid. Time stops. The word “hope” climbs out of the dictionary, packs its bags and walks away. But I was lucky. I had been loved. I have loved again.The picture [...]

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    3. When an author is courageous enough to bear their soul in an effort to entertain the reader, it can either be a horrendous disaster or a triumph deluxe. Which way it goes depends greatly on the author’s ability to translate that experience to the reader in a meaningful way. In this, Rainey succeeds.Rainey projects her deeply personal story unto Toni with an authenticity and candor those who’ve experienced the same thing can identify with. It reads like undated diary entries, whose author bor [...]

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    4. The author giftedly ushers readers through a deep, poetic, emotional journey of a battered woman's heart ache; through the realization that her experiences with men are due to a generational curse; through the rediscovery of who she is in God to her being healed by the One who has always loved her, God. I especially enjoyed how the writer illustrates the healing power of God's Word. Beautifully written!

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